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Author Topic: My first post on my board - death - for real - not the way I wanted it.  (Read 1753 times)

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This is true:

I was on the highway and things slowed. I could see a mini van flipped upside down in a ditch. People were running and scrambling. I pulled over, jumped out of the car and ran to the accident. I saw a man – twenty-one, maybe twenty-two – slumped over in the front seat. He was moving; he was alive.

Someone yelled, “There is a person under the van!”

There were seven or eight people trying to help. One wanted to lift the van. One wanted to wait for help. The others wanted to wait. Help wasn’t coming soon enough. I started to realize that there was nothing I could do.

The van was in a ditch. The ditch had water running through it; the water was about three feet wide. I saw blood in the water. Not Hollywood blood, and not a little blood, but lots of blood; buckets and buckets of blood. I saw so much blood that I felt ashamed of being a horror writer. Tears welled in my eyes. Then the blood really started to pour out of the van. The little river in the ditch was 50% water and 50% blood. I probably saw ten liters of blood running in that stream before I heard some one say that someone was under the van. I knew in my soul that someone was dead or dying.

The van – I should point out – was faced the wrong direction. The windows were smashed out and the metal was crumpled.   

My phone rang.

My friend Mike was on the other end. He said, “Roy! I just passed you! What’s going on?”

I said, “I saw the accident and I’m trying to help and...and...I don’t know what to do!” Then I started crying. I tried to hold it together but I couldn’t. While I was talking to him someone died, for real - and I couldn’t do anything about it.

After that I hung up the phone. A cop shows up; so does a tow-truck driver. Then came an ambulance driver. The paramedic moved so slowly. I wanted to yell, and tell the girl to hurry up- but I kept thinking about that ‘Bring out the dead’ movie.

I would never want to have her job. Ever.

I ran across the highway to my car. I got in and I cried my eyes out. Then I went to a bar and got drunk and drove home. Yeah – I know. But I don’t fucking care.

And ------ that’s it. That was my night.

I’m not making this shit up.
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Re: My first post on my board - death - for real - not the way I wanted it.
« Reply #1 on: August 08, 2008, 08:49:36 PM »

Hey bro, I hear ya.  I've seen more than enough accidents like that myself.  Just keep your head up, and live life to its fullest.  For what it's worth, most people who get crushed under a van end up straight out dead at impact.  I'm pretty positive he didn't have to wait to bleed out.

A drink for the fallen.

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Re: My first post on my board - death - for real - not the way I wanted it.
« Reply #2 on: August 08, 2008, 08:52:17 PM »

When we see something like this we never react the way we think we will.  I've seen a few things . . .    I hope the families of the victims can find peace.
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Re: My first post on my board - death - for real - not the way I wanted it.
« Reply #3 on: August 08, 2008, 09:00:39 PM »

That's terrible for the people directly involved and really rough for you and the other witnesses.  Try not to be too hard on yourself.  It doesn't sound like there was anything to do, except to care.  And you did that.
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Re: My first post on my board - death - for real - not the way I wanted it.
« Reply #4 on: August 08, 2008, 09:25:54 PM »

Thanks guys.

Honestly, just ------- thanks.
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Re: My first post on my board - death - for real - not the way I wanted it.
« Reply #5 on: August 08, 2008, 10:16:58 PM »

God man, I just can't imagine. The old cliche "really makes you think" applies for real here. But don't beat yourself up. Sounds as if you all were, unfortunately, witnesses to a terrible thing that had already run its course.

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Re: My first post on my board - death - for real - not the way I wanted it.
« Reply #6 on: August 09, 2008, 10:27:16 AM »

Then I went to a bar and got drunk and drove home.
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« Reply #7 on: August 09, 2008, 10:40:51 AM »

OMG, JJ, that totally went over my head when I read this story . . .   :o
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Re: My first post on my board - death - for real - not the way I wanted it.
« Reply #8 on: August 09, 2008, 10:08:10 PM »

Then I went to a bar and got drunk and drove home.

I hope that was a misspeak...    :-\
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Re: My first post on my board - death - for real - not the way I wanted it.
« Reply #9 on: August 10, 2008, 06:19:03 AM »

Drunk is too strong a word, but I did have a couple of beers, and several more when I arrived home. Honestly though - in hindsight - I was in no condition to drive, not because of the alcohol, but because I was not focused on driving at all. I kept replaying the incident in my head, again and again.

I feel better today; my heart goes out to victims of this terrible accident.
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Re: My first post on my board - death - for real - not the way I wanted it.
« Reply #10 on: August 22, 2008, 12:00:27 PM »

I know you felt terrible and everything, but for your own safety (and to not be the cause of another horrible accident) PLEASE be safe and don't drink and drive! I know you know this, I just don't want to see anything happen to you! I hope you are okay now.
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